外公

我的外公生病进院了。。说是肾衰竭加心脏积水。。我不知道这严不严重。。不过外婆说他很好可以吃可以睡。。外婆说不打算让他洗肾了因为不想他再受罪。。我不知道这是不是最好的决定不过我尊重他们的选择。。我真的很无助很害怕。。我不知道我可以做些什么。。我想回家可是情况不被允许。。
外公在我印象里很安静。。很少说话。。可是常常可以跟我老爸畅谈。。也只有在讲到动物的东西的时候他会傻傻开心的笑。。以前每次回马六甲早上起来他都一定已经踏脚车去老家养狗了。。他最疼的就是他的狗了。。然后他就会去那间旧旧的咖啡店喝咖啡。。再回老家小睡洗澡然后才回家。。过后因为叫没什么力了。。不能再骑脚车去他就走路去。。虽然我们都一直阻止可是他就是不听。。直到他最近真的是老了他才没去。。
妈妈说外公很严肃不常说话。。他最引以为傲的是他收集的钱币。。那些日本军大战时卖冰淇淋收到的钱币。。还记得有一次妈咪带他去百货公司走走他就开心了好几天。。因为他很少会说要跟我们一起出门。。
公。。你会好好的。。对吧。。我会为你吃素祈福的。。要等我回去一起过年啊~

嘿嘿。。跟你们说说我最近发生的事情吧。。我啊。。天真的以为这里的朋友是可靠的。。哈哈。。
人啊。。还是不要太容易相信人的好啊。。人吗。。都嘛自私所以我也不能说什么啦。。
他们啊。。说我“mood killer”每次出去要发脾气弄到大家都不开心哦。。
他们啊。。说我自己有问题应该自己学着解决不应该麻烦别人。。
他们啊。。说如果要付出就不要要求回报要不然就不是真心的付出哦。。
他们啊。。说我不应该常常等人来安慰我要自己去找人安慰哦。。可是他们却很fade out with my emotional..
我啊。。一直以为因为珍惜所以才会在意吧。。
我啊。。一直以为付出会有回报的。。
我啊。。一直以为朋友之间不用太计较。。

现在我才清楚的明白。。不是每个朋友都值得你这么做的。。
现在我才清楚的明白。。人啊还是凡事不要依赖的好啊。。

不过。。幸好我身边总是有个她。。Ravinder Kaur。。会一直陪在我身边。。

之前的我很伤心。。因为发现自己的付出不被珍惜。。不被看在眼里。。
之前的我很伤心。。因为害怕失去他们。。

可是现在的我却要让他们明白从一开始是他们放弃了我而不是我不要他们。。

现在的我只想靠我自己走完这段路。。
我不会再理会家里的任何一件事情任何一个人。。更不会让他们有机会伤害我。。赫赫。。

可能是我太偏激了吧？ 不过这次的付出我真的学会了很多。。友情有时还是淡淡的好。。

我还需要一个人走多远呢？我又能靠着自己一个人走多远呢？不知道。。也不敢想
好可怕。。人心的可怕。。依赖的可怕。。习惯的可怕。。信任的可怕。。我的天
i'm Sally Soo..yes..I'm Sally Soo..每天每天我都是这样跟我自己说的。。可是我可以靠着这句话过多久勒？这是个没有答案的问题吧？ 我只可以学着更勇敢。。更坚强。。加油的走下去吧？
苏凯晶。。你是时候学着什么叫做放手。。什么叫做舍得。。有舍才有得。。还有保护好自己。。在你没有本事保护自己之前千万不要想保护别人。。我拜托你。。加油。。为了你的老爸。。为了你那傻傻的老妈。。加油啊~！~！~！

凌晨十二点半我因为太想我那小孩子气的妈妈。。傻傻的老爸。。我哭了。。哭了很久。。一边哭却又止不住的笑。。我的爸妈啊。。你们怎么这么可爱？
如果我没有来这里读书。。我不会发现你们真的很疼我。。我还一直抱怨你们比较疼姐姐。。对不起。。
我真的很想很想你们。。虽然还有几天我就可以回家了。。可是你们知道我真的忍到很辛苦吗？
都是苏凯婷害的啦。。一直跟我讲家里的事情。。等我回到去。。一定要给你们大大的拥抱~！~！~！

happy

2day i reli very happy and energetic...i dn knw y...bt i juz very happy and hyperactive...feel like kacau somebody..ahahax...
i hope this feeling can last in my whole life...i wn to be happy everyday~!~!~! muackss~^^

help~!

eek>< i reli dn wn to dislike u..
u knw hw much effort i put to pull u in my gang...
u knw hw much feeling i gv to u...
u knw hw much i wish we can be best fren...
u knw hw much u hurt me now ?
pls..stop all the things tat u doing~!~!~!
u going to spoil our friendship and i will reli kicj u out frm my world!!!!!!!!!!!!

hahax..thx to ching ee lim who help me to pick, buy, and send this to my mum...dn knw y always whn in house din feel like any special when mother's day..tis year i reli feel like wn to do smtg..mum..i reli miss u and love u~^^

感慨啊

今天托静仪小姐的福翻了翻纪念册。。
感慨啊。。感慨。。
里面写着珍惜啦。。保持联络啦。。什么都是假的啦。。
还有联络的根本没有几个啦。。真的是感慨~~~
人啊。。你不联络他真的没有几个会自己找你得咯。。

真的是人生里进进出出的人太多了。。。
不过我相信他们的出现都一定是有原因的。。
有个朋友在纪念册里写： 记住你对别人的好那个人一定会记得知道的。。是真的吗？
不管怎样。。不管还有没有联络。。不管还记不记得。。我真心希望你们好~^^

不要惹天秤，不要欺負天秤，敏感的天秤最害怕受傷
天秤很不容易發脾氣，再低三落四的事，他也能硬著頭皮過
如果真的生氣了，天秤會不計後果的發瘋，那事情是真的嚴重了
別人眼中的開心果，似乎很堅強，內心只有天秤自己知道。

天秤座講義氣夠朋友；天秤座對待感情認真專一
天秤座最重要的是尊嚴，天秤座很顧家
天秤座喜歡逞強；天秤座害怕孤單
天秤座的優點不是外貌而是氣質
天秤座很陽光又開朗；天秤座不凶很好相處

最能傷害天秤的，不是愛情，不是親情
而是那叫做友情的東西。
秤子把友情看得很重，如果被秤子視為最親密的朋友傷害，想得到他的原諒很容易，但想再次得到秤子的信任就是難於上青天了。

天秤很懶，不想活得那麼累，能簡單儘量簡單
不愛解釋，始終認為懂自己的不用解釋，不懂自己的不必解釋
不相管那麼多不相干的事，他們只挑自己愛做的事

天秤有時候心裏會莫名的難受，卻不知為了什麽。
有時候，同周圍的人說說笑笑，卻覺得異常寂寞和孤獨
靜靜的看著窗外，會覺得自己是個容易被遺忘的人。

有時候，冷眼看著身邊的人吵吵鬧鬧。
有時候，覺得這個世界真的很假、很虛偽
真想就從這個世界上消失。

sometimes

sometimes not i dn knw...
i jz dn wn to tell...
so dnt try to make me like a fool...

sally soo

nowadays..i became more n more emotional...
i don know y..n wat d reason???
i easy to get angry..and always angry on the wrong person..
i tired...i don know wat to do...
i just wan to find someone who i cn depends who i can rely...
i tired with finding...i tired of protect my heart...i scare..i try to evade...
i don know wat to do...i don know who to say...
i hate the feeling of missing...
i hate the feeling of guessing...
i hate every feeling that i got... i hate...

if possible i really wan to run from this place...
if possible i really wan to run from this uni...
if possible i really wan to run from this country..
if possible i really wan to make myself heartless and invisible...

when i can stop all of these useless, nonsense, unnecessary feeling from myself ???

confuse

sometimes i really dn knw whether u r really concern me o just because listen to her...
can i delete all the feeling sensory organ i gt? so that i won't be torture...

嗯

有些时候不是我们不说。。
只是都清楚明白对方在想什么。。

hey hey

嘿嘿。。姐妹们。。
我突然有感而发。。
恩。。

李大仁。。大家都想遇到吧？哈哈。。

单身的姐妹祝福我们早点遇到属于我们的李大仁。。
不过当然要发现他的存在才好哦。。

至于不是孤家寡人的。。
希望你们身边那个就是你们的李大仁哈。。
还有最好是给我祝福我们一下。。

哈哈。。看完我可能不会爱你发的一个post~^^

erm

捷病了。。但一定会好的。。。我相信。。
真是感慨人生无常啊。。我还每天吊儿郎当的过。。
我真的很心痛。。他那么瘦小。。到底要怎样挨过去？
恩。。每天一定要信息她。。

还有我成绩出了虽然没有朋友们的好但我会加倍努力的。。
苏凯晶。。为你的人生努力一次吧～！～！～！ 加油·～！～！～！

天秤座

天秤座...

天秤天性好玩，好奇心重，容易滿足；
不管多大，童心一直不會變！ ♥


天秤渴望理解卻不奢求理解，
安於孤獨；更能樂於孤獨；
總讓人覺得很冷，幾乎每問一句話就只會應一句；
別說你懂天秤，他們連自己也不懂自己！ ? ?

性格很孩子氣，通常都不太獨立，
喜歡依賴讓他們感到安心的人，比如親人，朋友。 ♥

天秤看上去開朗，其實細膩而心重！


天秤座總是臉上微笑著、無所謂著、強勢著；
但是心裡卻一直流著淚，也不願意說出口，
他們需要被保護。
天秤座的人善良，但不好欺負！ ? ? ♥

erm...我最不喜欢的应该就是喜欢依赖别人。。真的要戒掉这习惯。。哈哈

thanks for everythings~^^

suddenly...i miss my mum...my dad...my sis...very very very very much...
seriously missing all of my family members...even those nt close aunties...
after cm here i really learn lots of things..
n i realize i really blissful enuf...i mz work hard...appreciate and use wisely everything tat i gt...
thanks...god...thanks guan yin ma...thanks da bo gong...thanks ru lai fo zhu...thanks all of my god...thanks for giving me everything that nice...

whn i feel hopeless u all send me into zoology of unimas...
whn i feel helpless u all send me you ling and wai sin...
whn i feel lonely and bored...u all send me ravin to acc me everydays...
whn i feel lack of joy...u all send me kar hon...
whn i feel lack of buddy...u all send me jia huey to my grp...

whn i feel boring u all send me frens...cheryl call me and ask whn i will go bec...
wan ling call me and wn buy shandy for me...she rmb my sis love it...really thanks...

when i almost emo in my corner...u all send ng kar hon n jeff to call me and ask me out to accompany me...really thanks...
when i feel nid to chat...u all send chea teik and audrey chat with me in fb...
when i feel wn go out and nid buy smtg for elder....u all send me audrey to offer herself and wan brg me out...

when i feel poor u all send me autie and mum to call me and bank in me money...
when i feel depressed...u all send me my sis to call me and chat with me...

i received everything u all send...thanks

i really really really feel blissful and thankful....as Sally Soo to live in this planet i feel lucky~^^

so...i will work hard n do watever i can to return back...

sally soo~!~!~! ganbatte~!~!~!~^^

as

1st Jan 2012

hehe...as ur information this recently i in a relationship wif somebody that my beloved Ravinder Kaur Chaal...
well..1st jan was her bday and she younger than me...she born at 1992 so she can choose to folo 1991 batch or 1992 batch i thk nt she choose bt her parents...she is the most important person in my unimas life...without her i really don knw how i wan to survive here...so thanks to her parents that choose 1991 batch for her...hahax...
kay...her bday we rent car for half day and me..shakti(her room mate)...loges(my room mate) four of us decide to go out eat and play and eat and play..hahax...
1st...we went to a vegetarian shop cz loges was vegetarian...food there really nice and the baday girl treated...erm..."bday girl" one week b4 her bday i thk mostly all the time u can hear she mention abt this her bday coming soon and we mz folo watever she order...really suffer week for three of us...hahax...luckily pass alr...
then after lunch we have no where to go...at first we decide to go beach bt bcz of that bday girl again she tot her period will cm at tat time she force us to cancel so we all wear long jeans bt since no where can go and her period is hvnt arrive we still decide go beach..hahax...with long jeans of cz==''
and for ur information kota samarahan sarawak has been rain frm 25th until 31st...so we really worry abt d weather...bt maybe of lucky of that bday girl...whn we reach beach rain stop and was a very very very sunny time...hahax...we had fun at that beach...and we promise will go thr again by well prepared wif kite, apparatus to built sandcastle and especially short pants ... hahax...
after beach we went to a malaysia-china friendship park which near to our universiti...erm...welll...i thk it's quiet nice and u knw in sarawak u really cnt expect more...
after park...of cz dinner time lah...we went to a hawker center and according to Sakti shld call "macam-macam"..hahax...
kay...we had macam-macam food and drinks thr...after that...
bday hw can be no cake is it ? so we bought a small cake since we all full wif food and drinks...
hahax...most important part come..play the cake bt nt eat the cake...with cream...cake...and ribbon spray and snow spray...and watever thgs we had fun on the bday girl who torture us for one week...after all the thgs...ravin and kar hon...jeff...chea teik had a competition abt a toy...and i thk they really enjoy..hahax...
11:50 we go bec to hostel and countdown for end of her bday and our torture time...hahax...
thats all for my 1st day of 2012...interesting enuf...love u all very very very much...
and once again...happy happy birthday to my beloved~^^